OMG! IS 10th DEC 2012...My one and only jeevan's birthday!His 21st Birthday!Just feel so nice is his birthday. Actually planned alot for him one year ahead, but never thought future will be in this situation.Well, guess all have its own reason. Waiting is the best for now. =) Hmm, Thursday i went to the art exhibition, when i steo into the place i was having a very strong feeling that he might be coming here as well. I did not really put it in my mind but later he came in. Do not know how to express the feeling when i see him again after so long and we said hai to each other, the feel of looking at him like the first time. Speechless as well. Is a great feeling.Would not know how does he feel. When someone care for you, te feel of it just so nice, sometimes even felt too touched and teared. Hmmm.Well, of course i wish so much to be with you on your birthday, not long.Perhaps few minutes will be a golden time for me.Guess i cant do so, i know where i stand. Hmmm, really want so much to wish in the phone at least, guess im that unlucky cant even do so as well. Guess he dont wish to hear my voice. I miss him! Really wish him he will have a great and wonderful 21 birthday!When i was using my phone,there was a reminder pop up.I looked at it, it stated'' My Hubby Birthday :') '' I was staring at it for long, but later i just close the screen.Was pain internally,but is okay.Able to bear it. I looked at his picture and wished him..All is well! =) Is not i dont want to wish him now, is just i dont wish if i mistakenly make his day out,since i always ask some stupid question, i will feel guilty.So i choose to wish him before his birthday end. =) As long my wish send to him, nothing will be happier than that. Bought him a gift long time ago,before we break. Since i have money and there were good sale goin on, so i bought it.Wonder is the size will fit him now?== Hope he able to fit in. God, please dun make him angry with me coz i get him a gift.I know he dont like gift, but i cnt dont give him anything.Plus he mean much to me.Hmmm.Sorry! Please dont angry and take it pls.! Felt a little uneasy when i always wish him at 12 am,but this year i din do so.Hmmm.Even during school days i will curi-curi call him at 12 and wish him happy birthday.Nice memories. =) Time does change everything. Really praying hard time will make us together back.Finger cross.But dun dare to have high hope, i wont be able to take heart break again. Amen! Guess is wishes time! Dont want to talk to anything more..NO TEARS TODAY!!!
Dear sayang jeevan,
Happy 21st Birthday to you! Hope you will have a great day and blast with family and friends!
Sorry for cant be with you on this day even i want to be there so deeply.! One day i wish i will be there for you till the end.! God bless you always in every single thing. Stay healthy always! Good luck and all the best! Have a good year ahead! :D Love you always,sorry. The more days gone,the more i love you.Sorry, Dun worry, i will keep my distance! =) Happy Birthday! :D <3